Thursday Tales No. 1: Miracle Baby

  What makes a miracle? Is it surviving against all odds, or being conceived after years of prayers and failed treatments? 

  This story holds a special place in my heart; it is one of my first stories to take a physical form. I can't quite remember when I conceived this, but it held on, quietly and steadily, till it found its way onto a page. Take a walk through this tale of hope, heartbreak, and silent resilience.


Miracle Baby



  “Iana,” she said. It meant ‘Gift from God.’ She indeed was one, so I  named her Iana when I first held her soft, little body in my arms, when the  warmth of life filled her tiny lungs after four hours of struggle that cold  December night. What makes a miracle? Is it surviving against the odds, or being conceived after years of prayers and failed treatments? I can't quite remember when I conceived it, but it held on, steadily, till it found its way onto a page. It was raw, tender, and beautiful, not in the way world defines beauty, but a deeply human way. I invite you to experience this tale of hope and heartbreak, resilience and unconditional care. 

  It was an uneasiness, a little twisting-turning in bed that had led me to wander  around in the campus when I heard violent growls. It wasn’t unusual to hear  them at night, but that day my legs, without instructions from my brain, had walked to the brown pariah dog at the edge of Dr Babasaheb Ambedkar  road, 15 feet away from our main gate. It was trying to pull a cold, half-lifeless bundle of flesh out of the public garbage bin, trying to protect it  from wild rodents, and unknowingly tearing its tissue-like flesh with its claws  and teeth. I was quickly drawn to picking up that bundle from the bin. It  was blue with the biting cold, it had wounds that aroused a faint whine of pain  and hunger. I wrapped her in my fur coat and assured the dog of her safety  with a simple nod of the head. I cycled half-a-mile to the nearest hospital and  admitted her there.  

  The doctors gave little to no hope of her survival. An infant of just a day  old had endured hunger, cold and wounds. The rough palms of life had  gripped her even before the gentleness of life could kiss her and surrender  her into the custody of life’s hardship.  

  But, she survived, she did! That’s what the doctors at St. Florence hospital  called a miracle. Profound happiness, a kind of happiness at the birth of  an awaited baby filled everyone at the hospital and at home. While  everyone was rejoicing at the arrival of a new baby at Our Lady’s Home, a  spark of anger, somewhere in my chest, was looking to fall on something  solid and use it as fuel to live and burn down the bearer of this child. With  pure reasoning and kindness learnt at the convent, and under Mother Fiona’s  guidance, this tiny fire disappeared without a trace. We began to  concentrate on the upbringing of Iana.

  Iana grew up into an angelic girl. In a home full of boys, she stood out and thus, stood there in front of Mr and Mrs Varun, who were, with pure admiration, trying to interrogate her.  Having been childless for almost nine years, and having drained half their bank on failed  medical treatments, they turned to a social service agent. In order to find an  heir to their textile industry, they located our home. They had come seeking for  a son to land in their arms, but as unpredictable as life is, they were  caught in awe with our Iana.  

  They had spotted her leaning on the only raintree growing in our front  yard full of peepal trees, looking deeply into the morning sky. She was a tad  less than five, with her cheeks gathered into a shy smile. The picture of that  girl by the tree, to Mrs Varun seemed like a diamond shimmering at a  reachable distance. She ran towards the girl and hugged her for a minute straight and let go of her only when the child’s discomfort  turned into a whimper. She later exclaimed that Iana felt to her like the one,  the one sent by God for them. Given her name, we knew it was true.  

  They began interrogating her with, “What is your name? How old are  you?” Other than pronouncing her name with a trisyllable, she limited  herself to answering all the other questions with monosyllables. The couple  were saddened by the thought that she was uninterested; only we could  understand the glimmer of curiosity in her eyes, which had already asked ten unanswered questions to us.  

  Joy brought by the hope of a prosperous future being determined for our  little angel, made us work restlessly to fulfil the various procedures. She  was taken to the counselling centre thrice a week, health check-ups  were done, bundles of papers were signed and stamped. Finally, the  documents were sent to the court for filing of a petition.  

  Over the course of these procedures, Mr and Mrs Varun’s frequent visits  made her attached to them. Initially, it was the sheer anticipation of gifts  and sweets they brought that really made her look forward to meeting  them, but it was soon replaced by a kind of waiting for the warmth they  emanated. On seeing them, her face showed a kind of smile – a smile  similar to the one seen only when she was allowed to stand by her favourite  tree.

  Mr Varun filled our home with toys for both Iana and the other children,  while Mrs Chaya decorated her daughter-to-be with the choicest clothes  and accessories. With more and more time spent with them, Iana  transitioned from our little girl to their little princess. 

  We soon began to  sense a rift, but her spirit showed not the slightest difference in her pleasure  for praying, singing, eating and playing with us. She clenched my hand, as  she always did, during our evening walks and asked me a hundred questions about everything her mind could question, but in her style of fewer words.  She still enjoyed claiming ownership of my arms and slept as I sang her  lullabies. Her gazes shifted from the fancies of the couple towards us  regularly conveying a belongingness to us. She was our Iana. We certainly  knew that she would arrive with Christmas, to celebrate her birthdays, hug  us with her happiness and make us proud with her successes. But as days of  her departure neared, a tinge of gleelessness shadowed us, more deeply on me. 

  A day before the final hearing, having the court as witness and the  passing of the final order, our home had the energy of a pre-wedding. A tiny  suitcase was bought for her; all her gifts and dresses were packed. She was  given everything she asked for, though she asked for nothing but some time on my arms. 

  With a sunset and a sunrise, her day of departure arrived. She was dressed in a violet frock which had a big white bow on the back. A  complementing hairband was fixed on her two-ponytailed head. She was led down the corridor to bid adieu to all her friends and seek the blessings of Mother and the sisters. She climbed up my arms and landed the longest and  strongest kiss on my right cheek and ran away. As my eyes were still fixed  on her slender body, she hugged her tree, which gave her a perfect view of  our entrance gate, and waited for them to arrive in their ambassador car.  

  At 11 a.m., our telephone rang. It was the punctual time the hearing at the  court would have ended. I answered it with diligence, being prepared to  follow any instruction they were to give. It was the driver on the other end  of the line. As he spoke the spark of that night re-emerged. 

  The only words  and the scene I could recollect were “Mrs Varun is pregnant,” and Iana standing  there, waiting…


- Mercy Rebonica

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